Rose Tucker

This week I am choosing to incorporate mindful meditation for 30 minutes a day. I get so angry at people. Angry that people only care for themselves, angry at the blatant disregard for anything besides bettering themselves.
I read a book that postulated that inherent altruism is genetic. I think this is true to some extent, but I believe that in this modern society, that inherent altruism is mitigated by cultural norms.
I think that if we see society fall apart in our lifetimes, it will be due to the loss of this inherent altruism.
That is the fuel behind my anger.
But I have always had a temper. Cycling and running everyday help, getting older helps too.
I believe meditation is another tool I can add to my arsenal.
I meditate when i get upset, and it does help immensely. When you find yourself thought cycling, you actively try not to think of what you are thought cycling on.
I usually only spent 10 minutes meditating, and I call it time out.
If I get worked up anxiety wise, I tell whomever I am with that Rose needs a time out.

I cannot add any more actions, but this is one that I will be doing. I will be eating mindfully.
Right now, I usually take my meals on the patio, and I watch the neighborhood in its aliveness. I usually bring out a book to read. I usually power through my meals and try to get through a chapter on my book. But, I will start chewing for longer. Getting in some good rumination. I think that peace is really important for the soul. That connection to the world around you. It allows you to connect to your neighborhood, your neighbors, and the surrounding environment.
The other day someone walking by told me how beautiful the flowers in my yard are. Another person pointed out to me how happy the bees in the garden looked.
Sometimes my landlord and her little granddaughter spend the morning out there picking flowers. It is on the north side of the house, so it stays shady for most of the day.

i just realized i may have been posting some of my challenges on my private feed. oops.

I cannot add any more actions, but this is one that I will be doing. I will be eating mindfully.
Right now, I usually take my meals on the patio, and I watch the neighborhood in its aliveness. I usually bring out a book to read. I usually power through my meals and try to get through a chapter on my book. But, I will start chewing for longer. Getting in some good rumination. I think that peace is really important for the soul. That connection to the world around you. It allows you to connect to your neighborhood, your neighbors, and the surrounding environment.
The other day someone walking by told me how beautiful the flowers in my yard are. Another person pointed out to me how happy the bees in the garden looked.
Sometimes my landlord and her little granddaughter spend the morning out there picking flowers. It is on the north side of the house, so it stays shady for most of the day.

Soap berrys. They have antimicrobiano properties and they do the same as soap, the sulfactant(I think that’s what it’s called) bind to water and dirt. Nature’s soap.
Harvest a couple cups and boil in a gallon of water. Set aside a week’s worth of soap and freeze the rest.
For winter, dry the berries so you can keep making batches as you run out. 😊

I started this mission with goals that were low hanging fruit because I already partially or totally commit to these goals on a daily basis. It is important, when you are dipping your toes into the water to try to keep it simple.
I will expand a little bit about Veganism in my life:
I am vegan. Every person's relationship with food can vary over the course of their lives. Some people live their lives addicted to junk food. Others are afraid to eat.
My relationship with food has been a progression towards what I consider to be a healthier lifestyle that balances my needs.
My mom was a strong woman. She was plagued her entire life by anorexia. This anorexia was driven by cultural values combined with mental health disorders. She suffers from anxiety and depression.
I was exposed to this throughout my youth. By the time i moved out i had a blossoming mix of bulimia and anorexia perpetuated by culture and inherited mental health disorders.
It took years of introspective analysis to convince myself that weight was not an issue for me.
I dont fill my body with junk, i excercise daily, and i dont have any health issues that cause me to gain weight.
I cant own a scale. it will trigger that obsession.
I have done stints with vegetarianism, not for health, not for animal rights, but as a form of self control. i enjoyed depriving myself.
as i aged i tried to repair the relationship i have with both myself and food.
Currently im vegan for animal rights, environmental reasons, and because i hate when people tell me what to put into my body. I have been vegan for 1 year and 3 months.